Let all the ingrediensts boiling on the hot pan

Salam kawan-kawan yang selalui dirindui..

Post kali ni bukan pasal masak-memasak tapi ayat ni:

"Let all the ingrediensts boiling on the hot pan."

kite dengar dari mulut advisor kite lepas weekly individual meeting ngan die. Heh, kalau die suruh masak, kite lagi rela tau tapi maksud dia lainla. Ni bukan ingredients yang mendidih, tapi otak kite yg sedang menggelegak. Sebab semalam banyak sangat keje die bagi kite:

1) fikir cane nak apply Laplace transform utk model kite.
2) tulis report nicely sume yg kite dh paham sepanjang setahun buat research ni.
3) check software ANSYS FLUENT plak, boleh tak kite embed equation kite dlm tu. Sebelum ni guna COMSOL tapi COMSOL tak support equation yg agak complicated ni.
4) baca balik paper Renardy, plot relation between  steady states dan elastic limit.
5) derive convencted derivative dan invariant derivative.

Semua benda ni die nak minggu depan. Rasa macam nak nangis dah. eh, nangis lagi, x boleh ke x nangis. Dia maklum banyak sangat keje yang kite kena buat, tapi dia still push. Kite ni tengah dlm mode lembik kot, kalau ada something additional happened mesti dah teriak kuat-kuat. Tinggal tunggu orang cucuk sikit je. heheh..

Kite rasa advisor kite macam komunis la. Hari tu tgk movie pasal perang antara vietnam ngn US, watak ketua komunis tu sebiji mcm advisor kite. Cara dia buat decision, cara berfikir, cara dia kerahkan orang2 dia, sebijik hokey. Tapi xdela kejam sgt sampai membunuh, karisma diri tu sama. Hari tu kite siap kena marah lagi. Jangan ingat you perempuan you tak boleh kena marah. Sebabya pasal nak run COMSOL kat cluster universiti la. Kite ckp kite tengah tunggu queue, banyak sangat job orang lain tengah beratur, tapi die plak cakap:

"Don't wait! push them! push them!"

dengan muka merah menahan marah. Mak aih.. pastu kan dia terus call technician universiti tapi phone office dia rosak. Lagila die bengang. Kite nak lari je masa tu. In the end dia call guna personal handphone dia, cakap cina dengan technician tu, yelah technician tu pun cina. See.. nampak tak org2 yg hebat kat US ni bukan omputih tapi sebenarnya org dari negara luar yang naikkan nama US contohnya russia dan china. Tengah dok2 dia cakap cina kat phone, tiba2 dia tanya soalan dalam bahasa cina kat kite:

"&&(^%())^W)"

Kite geleng kepala tanda tak paham. Ops.. baru dia sedar student dia yg ni bukan cina, muka je ada sikit2 iras cina. hehe. pastu die pun macam nak tergelak tapi cover. hahaha.. begitulah pengalaman kite bekerja dgn 'komunis'.

Till then.

Macam kat China da..

Yesterday we had a weekly Research Seminar for math department specialize in applied and computational math. The presenter was a Dr from China and all the audience were chinese except me. Heh.. My advisor and my collegue were there too.

For the first 30 minutes he talked in English with heavy accent of chinese. I can't hardly understand what he said plus he displayed his full paper on the projector and went through all over it. No slide huh? Nay..

I tell you what, the most active audience is my advisor, he asked a lot of questions and it seems like they were both discussing the matter while other people just being an observer. At first, my advisor asked in English, but then he asked in Chinese to that guy. This was because as I said earlier the guy can't speak English very well to deliver his talk. I think it is ok if he answer questions in his language but no matter what he need to present in English. Believe it or not, in the next 30 minutes I heared Chinese talk only.

It was an awkward moment for me. I think I wasted my time. I was so mad inside and made a promise to myself not to come again to this seminar if the presenter is chinese. Later in the evening I got an email from my advisor arranging my presentation for this seminar in October. Well.. that means I need to break up my promise. I must attend every week so that I can get used to the people there and hopefully I can give my presentation comfortably. Hehe..

p/s: Self-reminder: Don't speak Malay if you have an audience who can't speak Malay.

Biasalah tu.. cabaran.

Hi, I'm back. I'm facing really hard times now. Crying in my office while calling my husband. This time the reasons are:

1. Matlab kat komputer office tak boleh pakai sebab masalah lesen pebendela. Dah emel ke person in charge tapi masih belum berjawab. Dah pergi ke office dia tapi dia takde. Great!
Alternatif lain: guna komputer di labs, Matlab ok tapi setting username dan password dah bertukar. So, takleh access. Dah tanya juga ke person in charge tapi masih belum berjawab. So, menunggu sampai keluar janggut.

2. Comsol software. Nak run bukan boleh pakai laptop biasa je, very high computation. Sebab tu kena send Comsol job ke cluster universiti. Tapi bukan aku sorang yang guna cluster tu. Kena beratur wei. Selalu tunggu 1 hingga 2 hari tu ok lah, tapi ni dah masuk 7 hari masih dalam queue wait status. Tak ke jam kepala otak ni. Kalau dah run dapat error  kena betulkan coding semula dan send semula job. Pastu tunggu lagi dan begitulah berulang2 kali. Pada aku OK je bab betul2kan coding tu tp yang aku tak tahan ialah masa menunggu.. MASA!

3. Kena pindah office sebab ada lecturer baru masuk. Office baru duk ngan sorang budak lelaki cina. Sangat2 x selesa. Segan ngn dia sbb dia pandai sangat. lagi.. ntah.. aku selalu tanya dia soalan sampai kadang2 aku dapat kesan dia rasa boring dah malas nak jawab. Sedih sgt.. Aku sedar aku sepandai dia.

4. Kena pergi bank tolong uruskan overdraft duit orang. Kalau lambat bank akan charge satu hari $50. Kejam giler, dah tu mana aku ada kereta nak g, lesen pun tadak. Kereta Din bawak g keje. Jumaat bolehla, Din cuti. Kesianla plak org tu kena bayar lebih. Rasa bersalah pulak.

Dah kenapa ngko ni nak mengadu kat blog plak. Ntah.. Biarla.. Harap2 bila tulis ni lapang sikit otak. Sebelum tulis rasa banyak giler bende yang berkecamuk, bila dah tulis.. 4 benda je rupanya. So camne nak settle yek. Erm..

1. Sementara tunggu Matlab tu OK, apekate ko guna Maple dulu untuk produce graph tu. Mana tau Allah nak bagi ko explore Maple plak. Cuba dulu.. nanti bila Matlab dah ok ko boleh compare the results.

2. Pasal Comsol dan Cluster aku x leh buat ape lg kot. Just sabar. Itu je kuncinya.

3. Pasal pindah office tu takyah fikir sgt pasal org. Buat kerja ko. Kalau dah takde tempat minta tolong, tanya je Allah. Baca quran banyak2 supaya diterangkan hati, dibukakan hijab utk ilmu masuk dalam dada.

4. Tak perlu rasa bersalah. Minta maaf dengan org tu sebab kita dah cuba sedaya upaya nak tolong. Allah Maha Tahu!

Selesai sudah sesi pujuk memujuk diri sendiri ni. Now, back to work.